Lately I've found that watching those swirly light patterns you get behind your eyelids strangely relaxing. {Please tell me I'm not the only one who sees these sorts of things! Sometimes they're dots that move around, or swirly shadows or something. You see them too, right? Ok, good! Just checking!} So I just close my eyes and watch and somehow it clears my mind! So the other night I was doing this while trying to get back to sleep when all of a sudden ... I was being spoken to ...
A gentle voice asked me ...
"What is it you truly want?"
and without hesitation,
I answered ...
"Sleep".
I answered ...
"Sleep".
Next thing I knew
I was waking up to my alarm
and the sun was rising.
Then it hit me.
What???
Sleep???
I'm asked by what could be The Divine
what I truly want
and I ask for sleep???
Really???
Instead of asking for the chance just to be
a stay~home mom instead of
a work~at~home mom
or
to lose this stubborn baby weight
that just will not come off
no matter what I do
or
to know what my divine purpose is
I ask for sleep???
Hopefully The Divine just smiled
as the wise old parent does
and patted my soul on the head and said,
"Yes, you really are tired.
Rest your weary soul.
We can discuss this later."
I'm sure He knows that what I asked for
in the moment isn't
necessarily what I truly desire
in the grander scheme of things
~ after all, He knows the desires of my heart.
Or maybe my greatest wish after all, really is sleep!
If you were granted one wish
what would it be?
You already know mine!
Oh B., that brought tears to my eyes! I think, because of the fear we can all relate to that we had one chance for ... (fill-in-the-blank) and we missed it. Yeah, that's it, because I can feel the emotion of that idea.
ReplyDeleteBut I agree with you, B. I think "we'll talk again, later!" is exactly right. And I also think that not only are the desires of our hearts intimately known but they are placed in our hearts to begin with so we are meant to want them.
What would I want is someone got out their magic wand or was granting a wish?
Write-at-home income that was enough to afford a lakefront home and someone to hire to clean the house, buy organic groceries & cook them.
I was up at 2 a.m. also. A drunk driver ran off the road and came to our house looking for help - rang the doorbell and scared us out of a deep sleep.
ReplyDeleteI could not fall back to sleep until well after 4. I'm like you in that I am rotten at falling back to sleep once awoken.
If I could have one wish, it would be for a healthy family. My MIL passed last month, and we have a very sick member of our family who is fighting an aggressive brain cancer. Health is most important. You don't have much if you don't have your health.
Jeanine ~ I love that idea ~ that the desires are placed in our hearts so that we are meant to want them. That's a beautiful thought ~ and because he knows our potential he knows that we can do great things with those desires and interests he placed in us!
ReplyDeleteYikes Adrienne! That would scare me half to death too! I absolutely agree about health being so important! I'm praying for health, healing and recovery for you and yours!
Cute new picture!
ReplyDeleteMy one wish would be sufficient sleep every evening. I have periods of insomnia or 4-hour sleeps, and it wrecks my whole day, my health, my attitude, etc. To get sufficient rest each evening is a luxury; you only recognize it as a luxury when you don't have it.
Lol! Thanks Rebekah! I thought I'd better throw a new picture up there that I wasn't wearing black in! My little sister is going to take some new pics soon, so this will work until I can get my new photo session in!
ReplyDeleteI totally agree on the sleep! Obviously ~ because that's what I apparently asked for! LOL! I just want to wake up bright eyed and bushy tailed every morning! That would be such a wonderful feeling!